that is right damon salvatore. you make my day worthwhile.

the bitch of fucking living.

it sucks. no honestly it does.

i went to these auditions on saturday right? i didn't know they were on until half an hour after they started and i got a text from a friend telling me to meet him there, i rush out of bed, barely put any makeup on and rush down to were the auditions on, and even though i had no notice what so ever. i nailed it. i nailed the audition and i know i did.

however, i still don't get a part. oh i have energy and talent and i should audition again next time but i am not right for this particular production. please bitch. spare me.

sorry, i am in a bad mood, i only seem to remember about this blog when i am in a bad mood. i don't know, maybe i need thearpy or something... again.

yes i am disappointed, and yes i do remember telling everyone that i was taking a year out of drama and concentrating on english literature and that i shouldn't let this get to me. but for a second there, i let myself get excited about it again. i forgot about the bitchiness and the crap that comes with it, the stress, and the annoying directors. the girls who think they are so much better than you and the boys who barely look at you twice. i remembered how much i simply loved speaking the words on a page. how much i loved letting it consume me completely, immersing myself in my character, be it shakespeare, pinter or even just a devised piece.

and the thing that really shits on me? is the fact that there is probably a 80% i didn't get a part cause i am a girl. cause girls always turn up for these things when there are only 3 girls roles available while there are 15 guys roles for the 3 guys who appear.

it's not fair.

flashback to when he said forever and always.

last night was sooooo goood.

it was the english social, and i didn't know about it, so i was just sitting around at the flat not doing much and was pretty bored, but then one of the girls on my course texted me and asked if i wanted to go with them. i don't have any money really so i was hesitant, but it was either that or be a complete bore and miss my THRID english social. so i went! i had to get ready in like ten minutes flat though cause i left it so last minute.

it was so nice! i meet some new people and cause i hardly knew anyone i was with i didn't really care about making a fool of myself. not that i don't care with the group of friends i have here, but you get the drift. anyway, we went to fat cats which is like this realy expensive cocktail bar, but it wasn't too bad cause it was two for one. so a £6 cocktail became two £3 ones. gettin. then we marched off to this little club called metros. not the same as the one in carmarthen, except it looks a bit like it. which was freaky but whatever. it was £6 to get in, but then drinks were like £1. a double vodka and lemonade cost me £1.37, so considering how drunk i was last night, staggering down chippy lane, nattering away to sian and ffion in welsh, £15 was a seriously cheap night.

then i got a text from caroline demanding chips so i had to go see her, completely carparked at like half 2 to give her these chips and she was completely sober and just laughing at me. lush.

it was a really good laugh though. i loved every second of last night.

in other news, we are househunting! there is about ten of us, and we are looking for two houses, a boys house and a girls house, mainly cause that means the boys can have the mess and we can have the flowers and the boss zac efron posters. result. i am seriously excited about it. i can honestly say i have never really meet a group of people i get on so well with, except my friends at home obviously. james was dispairing in the fact that i was jumping with excitement about next year on the way back from the lecture considering we have not even managed to get through term 1 yet of this year, but i can't help it! it's soo damn exciting! I am going to be living with beccy, caroline and jenny next year. my girls. it's going to be so good. (:

i went to see new moon on sunday night withy georgia. that was the highlight of my week. no joke. i miss that girl and i REALLY wanted to see it with her, so when we randomly decided to go i was so happy i could scream. jacob is so amazing. when it comes to the films i am completely team Jacob. i don't know why i have gone off Edward so much. maybe i should reread twilight again.....

taylor swift is so cute. her music is so lovely and adorable, but i don't really like her as a person but the piano version of forever and always is my new pet sound. it's so beautiful.

listen to it and tell me that you love it too please!

lord almighty. i am in love.

somebody to love .

the story so far.......

- MOVED IN.
- MEET ROOMMATES.
- GOT DRUNK FOR TWO WEEKS STRAIGHT.
- WENT TO ALL MY FIRST LECTURES DRUNK.
- HAD THE BEST.BIRTHDAY.EVER.
- GOT SICK THREE TIMES IN A MOUNTH. DAMN FRESHERS FLU.

now i am stealing non's blog idea. cause i have so much to say and so little time.

LOVING
- new friends
- old friends
- fireworks
- halloween
- cat masks
- stolen pumpkins
- winneeeee
- facebook pictures
- flatmates
- ready meals
- cheap diet coke that picky flatmates won't drink
- dinner parties
- practical jokes
- clingfilm
- the lash
- LIVE LOUNGE <3

HATING
- not a lot tbh.
- BEING ILLLLL.
- boys

READING
- anything that is NOT on my course
- but thena few things taht are
- north and south for example
- funtimes.

LISTENING TO
- Journey
- The Beatles
- THE XFACTOR

next blog will be better promise.

i want new shoes

but i'm a poor student and can't afford it.

IN OTHER NEWS. I AM BLOGGING AGAIN. WOOP WOOP.